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Preorders open for Alchemy of the Soul II Sublimation

I am so glad to announce the publication of the second part of Alchemy of the Soul!
In Sublimation we explore the psyche through poetry, we confront the shadow self, the Chiron themes and the unidentified copying mechanisms, all that which generates in the early childhood and we carry unkowingly to adulthood…laid brilliantly in touching poetry and poetic prose (free verse poetry).

This is my experience, this is how I’ve got to know what is hidden within myself through interactions, through the refraction of myself in the other; this is a work of meditations handed on a silver plate so others can identify in themselves their hidden fears and strengths

For this release, I wanted to give the opportunity to buy ahead of time, the official release for Alchemy of the Soul II Sublimation: A collection of poetry is on December 17th 2021 but starting today you can sign yourself for the preorder of your copy (or copies).

Have a look at the inside preview of a few selected pages

Alchemy of the Soul II Sublimation: A collection of poetry
Trim size A5 (5.83 x 8.27 in or 210 x 148 mm)
134 pages
ISBN 9789090350400
Advanced/preorder price included shipping worldwide 10€

How will the procedure be?
-Fill in the required information on the form below.
-Payment of preorder will be done starting from 1st December through iDeal, paypal or SEPA bank transfer (no need to pay yet!).
-I will contact you on the provided email about your prefered payment method and your shipping address.
-As soon as payment is received, your copy will be on its way to you
-Enjoy your advanced release copy!

Rant of a neurodivergent

And I refuse to call us disabled just because we have a different perception of the world.
I myself have more abilities, resilience, understanding and intelligence than many people and I consider myself an average person, so I will asume that the rest of you, disorder-catalogued folks are the same.

No, my anxiety disorder doesn’t cause me any symptoms, these are behavioural conditionings due to trauma that have helped me, like changing the way of walking can help a person with a leg injury to not have pain.

Yes, I’m on the mending, and will be all my life because this behaviours I’ve learnt at a very young age and now I have to unlearn them.

No, the ways on which I decide to/help me reroute this behaviours cannot necessarily be applied to others, every body has the way that works for them; I only can set an example in case someone finds it useful for them also.

Yes, exercise helps by promoting creation of endorfines and serotonine, but it is in no way an excuse for not having conversations about how we’re dehumanized by performance, market, productivity….

And yes, society is ableist, wether consciously or not, and this does, indeed have a great repercussion on us, specially at education or work enviroments; because of this “oh, no she’s going to break” thought conversations are eluded, workload not trusted on yourself, and in general an “I don’t think that X person can do this job/ is fit to do this” general treatment.
Would be nice, from time to time, to be taken seriously and not infantilised.

Would be nice to be acknogledged, read it carefully, not a pat in the back, no congratulations, not be measured differently, just acknowledge that in order to function like someone whose thinking is not a little bit to the left we need to make an extra effort.

That we have a limited amount of energy, and that we must be extremely careful on what or who we spend it

To sum up I could simply say we’re, more often than not, just wanted to be treaten like normal people; the problem is that it’s so normalized to treat people like shit that, when we ask for respect of our boundaries or triggers, ableist society says that they have to treat us with “kindness” or that we’re “fragile”, no dear, maybe we should just normalize treating everybody with basic respect.

Laurel

Laurel is a plant strongly linked to succes and glory, Romans wore crowns made of it when they came back victorious from a war campaign. Even the Spanish word “laurear” means to honour or present high respect to someone.

All of this is because laurel is associated with Apollo, the Sun God, in the myth of Daphne which tells the story of how the young maiden transformed herself into a laurel tree to run away from him and his obsessive love. The myth concludes with the promise that he will put her leaves over the heads of the heroes but that is only half of the properties of laurel.

Apollo is god of the arts and of inner healing, often identified with Asclepius, whose symbol is the Caduceus with the twin snakes that we usually can find in any modern pharmacy.

Apollo is not God of the Sun in a literal way like Helios, but in a metaphorical way, for he is the inner (or mystic) Sun, being recognized as such in the Oracle of Delphi; the fact that Eros cursed him with being unable to find love (even if he was considered as the most beautiful and talented of the Gods) only proves so, for the live of the mystic is one of love towards knowledge and spiritual grow (this doesn’t mean chaste, by the way, in ancient Greece a “virgin” was an unmarried woman, not a woman who had no sex) and as such laurel is most useful not only for spells in which we want to be victorious or defeat an enemy but also in those more subtle ones to see glimpses of the future.

When using laurel for any spell is possible to use it dried (bayleaf) as it is easier to find it in any supermarket than it is to find the actual plant if it’s not autochthonous on your area.

I wouldn’t recommend burning bayleaves because it smells horrible but we could do so to “burn away” someone’s succes.

Bayleaves can be kept on inside the shoes, or put under a coin as a lucky charm for yourself or to receive constant flow of money.

If you decide to grow the plant in your yard it will become a refugee and home for the Faes and other “small people” (driads, gnomes and fairies in general). Be sure to keep milk, honey and/or cinnamon close by it to make them happy.

Wear it on a crown or hang it on your doorframe just as Romans did to receive the blessing of Apollo and keep you victorious on every part of your life.

Another way of achieving this effect is by creating an essential oil from bayleaf and olive oil and rubbing yourself with it.

Rubbing it against a mirror or putting it on a bowl of water can grant visions of the future, of your future love or of what is the way to find it.

It’s also useful for dreaming about the future if you put it under your pillow, this can be amplified using also lavender, poppy and chamomile.

And of course, pasta boiled with bayleaf and a bit of olive oil is delicious.

Oración abrecaminos/Ways opening prayer

Que todo mal se aparte de mí,
que mis pies corran ligeros, seguros y firmes;
Que quien me desee mal así lo reciba de vuelta,
y que quien me busque como enemigo encuentre a sus propios enemigos;
Que toda piedra que encuentre en mi camino sea sólo para aprender,
y que no encuentre obstáculo que me haga caer ni montaña que no pueda escalar;
Que el viento sople a mi favor,
que no se apague la antorcha que me guía y que se abran todas las puertas a mi paso.

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Let all evil be away from me,
that my feet run light, sure and firm;
That whoever wishes me bad receives it back,
and that whoever seeks me as an enemy finds their own enemies;
That every stone I might find in my way serves only to learn,
and that I find no obstacle which makes me fall or mountain that I can not climb;
Let the wind blow in my favor,
the torch that guides me be not extinguished and let all the doors open in my path.

“I’m sorry”

“I’m sorry” she said, her eyes downcast “I never wanted to make you feel like this. I know I’ve been acting like a fucking stupid. I overthought things, as always”

He just stood there unmoved with a cynical look “I just don’t think you say this because you mean it, it’s just another of your ways to make me pay attention to you”

That one hurt. Maybe he was right, maybe she just wanted that he spoke to her again, to be back at the times they had fun and pretend nothing of this has happened at all but no, a part of her probably felt like that, but she knew it was too late, that as usual she had fucked it up once again.

“Listen, I’m not gonna bother you anymore. Keep your way and I’ll go on my own bussines. I’ll not even look at you if you don’t want me to, I’ll stay far from you. I’m truly sorry for all of this, and maybe some part of me still would want to be near you but I couldn’t live with myself knowing I’m making someone feel uncomfortable, that I’m hurting someone. That is the last thing I want. Just….take care of yourself please, and don’t feel bad because of this, it hasn’t been your fault at all, it was all my mistake. Be happy, please”

And with that she turned away. She would never look back, she didn’t mind what he thought of her anymore. She just wanted him to be happy and knew that she was an impediment for him to do so.
So she left.

However she could never take him out of her heart.
But that is a secret she would never tell anyone.